Lately

As I stated in my fancy bio, I’m new to this here website/blog world. But I figured I would start a weekly or monthly edition of Lately. In this blog post you’ll hear all the glamorous things I am up to. For example it might be what I’m reading lately, what I’m drinking or eating lately. Maybe I will tell you what I’m stressing about or finding joy in…lately.

See, pretty exciting stuff.

Also when I say this might be weekly or monthly, let’s be honest with ourselves. I just mean I don’t want to commit to something every week, consistently. Because if by chance you follow me on Instagram you might have seen that I am a slow mover. I love the idea of posting daily, but when it comes down to it I find it quite difficult. Especially when it comes to something where I put myself out in the world.

Ok back to it. I’m currently in my final semester of a Masters program. Lately, it is pushing me to my limits, in the best ways. Writing has been the first thing in a long time that I have tried really hard at. That sounds strange. But in general I doubt myself ALL THE TIME. So in the past when I’ve tried something new I often didn’t get too far. I told myself the same things; it was too hard or you probably won’t be good at it. Just let it go.

I told myself, Don’t dream too big, it probably won’t happen.

Sadly that has been my mantra. Without even realizing how often I told myself that. It wasn’t until a few years back when my husband said. “Stop telling me what you might be able to do and tell me honestly if you could do anything in the world what would it be?” I sat there quietly and I almost made up something other than what I really wanted.

But then I whispered… I would write.

And so I went back to school, after 20 some years no less. The wonderfully surprising thing is I love it. I love how hard I have to work. I love the art of making words flow. Rewriting and tweaking and rearranging those words until they fit like a puzzle. I get excited when I have new ideas, or when inspiration strikes and I must write it down. My desk and bedside table are covered in colorful sticky notes and index cards where my ramblings might converge with a future story.

So, welcome to my musings and ideas and rants all about books and reading and writing. Welcome to this blog that is the opposite of fancy and polished. But it is me, Lately.